We began attending parties in which I found myself one of the few white individuals. Men would means me personally, hardly ever keeping away from grabbing my personal backside or asking the question, “So you want black men?” I was called that female who had been best enthusiastic about dark colored men and all of a sudden, the body that took me years to be more comfortable with became one I happened to be questioning once more. “You don’t have any a**, Erica” one guy stated at one of these simple events as LL Cool J’s “Big Ole backside” blasted through speakers, while another told me he had been ready to handle my personal lack of a chest because I’d “an a** like a dancer.” Many of the tunes regarding broadcast by black colored writers and singers appeared to place increased exposure of parts of the body that I became lacking.